There is no such thing as great wisdom in the world, just as there is no such thing as talent. What exists is triviality. If you keep doing repetitive things, you become an expert; if you do repetitive things with special focus, you become a master.
"Power does not corrupt. Fear corrupts... perhaps the fear of a loss of power."
The journey of scientific discovery is filled with challenges, but it is also incredibly rewarding.
Perhaps you are overvaluing what you don’t have and undervaluing what you do.