Concerning the gods, I cannot know either that they exist or that they do not exist, nor what form they might have, for there is much to prevent one's knowing: the obscurity of the subject and the shortness of man's life.
You have to be willing to grow. Growth is different from something that happens to you. You produce it. You live it. The prerequisites for growth: the openness to experience events and the willingness to be changed by them.