Painting is a way of forgetting oneself, of losing oneself in order to find oneself.
Fearless is not the absence of fear. It’s not being completely unafraid. To me, fearless is having fears. Fearless is having doubts. Lots of them. To me, fearless is living in spite of those things that scare you to death.
Given the choice between the experience of pain and nothing, I would choose pain.